dumdum

i hate comparisons.
i feel competition once again.


screwed.





& for the 1st time.
i like Miss Jane. i love her motivation/inspirational talk today.
but it's our last lesson with her already. ha-ha
i'll miss her! [x
say HELLO to Sunit Singh next week!




BIO!
did i mention i love bio?
if i didn't, i shall do it now!
I LOVE BIOLOGY!!!
because...
THE FILE IS PINK! XD
but i don't think i'll do well. :x
class test tomorrow! gogogo!

snap!

guess what!
I PASSED MY MATH COMMON TEST!
我为了自己捏了一把冷汗。:]
so happy! 27/32 for E math part.
whole paper is 50 marks.
so even without the A math part, i still manage to pass.
yay. jiayou! :D



& it's the first time in 2007 i didn't go for individuals.
too tired le lar! Zzz
i neeeeeed my beauty sleep badly!
how can sleeping beauty NOT SLEEP?!
sleeping beauty has got dark eye rings already! ): boo!
i know a way to get my upbeat on track! :D


& MEMEK VENUS IS BACK!
HOORAY! :D
yay, she said SHE MISSES ME TOO LAR.
i'm like so HONOURED?
yay.


& band tomorrow!
i'm excited to play Jericho!
with my lovely section! :D
we rock lar (:



3 MORE DAYS TO S.H.E CONCERT!
OH VENUS~
OH PLANETS!
OHHHHHH UNIVERSEEEEE
I'M SO EXCITED! :D :D :D

hohoho

FINALLY!
a day without homework.
not exactly without homework, but none of the homework is due tomorrow.
so yay! :D


finally no need to chiong! :D happy!
& i hope i don' fail my math common test.
when everybody's like saying they're gonna fail.
hm, i think it's not that bad afterall.
anyway it's the 1st common test, so ya, make a bet if you pass. x]


& i seriously don't like mrs philip.
got goodness sake, please recall what you've said earlier.
Just A DAY before.
you said homework's due today.
& we wanted to hand it up today, you said we didn't hand up our work so we must go to the back of the class to stand. isn't it so like bloody unfair?
if i'm not gonna understand this topic on blah blah division.
then i seriously think i need a math tuition teacher. ahh!



oh & i learnt finished all my notes in Jericho!
that's like a great achievement lar!
i'm so impressed by myself. lolol. :]
so articulations to work on!
of course all the running notes at a faster speed!


& i can't wait for the sec 1s to come in suddenly.


& memek venus is not in school for like 2 days!
aw i miss you! lol
see this?
BE HONOURED!! :D

&lay flat on the ground

adventurous camp?

i went there with a mixed feeling.
so it's so evenly MIXED together that i don't know what i'm feeling.
i can be so happy but the next second i just stone there.
gee.


& I HATE COMPARISON.
why are people always comparing 3/3 & 3/5?
just because we take 9 subjects?
they pin high hopes on us?
this is so stress.
the way the teacher look at us.
just because we take 9 subjects, so they are full of expectations.

i feel so stress .
not by the studies, but by the TEACHERS & OTHERS alone.
gah.

it's like the campfire NE skit.
we already know 3/3 & 3/5's gonna be the last 2 to present.
cause they expect MORE from us.
as expected, so realistic.




i'm sorry if any 3/3 people are gonna read this.
but i'm VERY VERY unhappy with MR. G.
what is he thinking? i need to pick his brain!
why does he always like to suan us in front of his class.
is this gonna make him happy?
so what if we've got substance but no style?
does it matter to you?
whatever & whatever you've said, i just feel so ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
it just pissed me off.
why must you make 3/3 & 3/5 become enermies?
competing?!
sigh.
i'm so NOT gonna let your dream come true.


there's no way we can fight.
we take different subjects.
how are you gonna compare?
we face different kind of stress.
even though it's just 1 subject of difference.
but it can be a BIG one, different people differs.


i'm so not happy with him.


but i'm always happy with the people there. :D



i admit i'm a 胆小鬼, cause i cried just nobody's business during the Confidence walk.
MUAHAHAHA.
i got even more frightened when Rafiq said that, "if you see something white in front of you, do not follow, it might not be your friend."
& we're wearing P.E. tee. so we're WHITE.
& my mind went wild .
& i got so scared & started crying.
then i calm down.
but when i stood up & start walking alone, my tears just ran uncontrollably down my cheeks.
ah, & i saw a white figure following behind me.
the footsteps were clear, but not the figure.
i knew it was jessica, but i just don't trust myself.
cause the footsteps were fast, and no other sound.
i broke down halfway.
it was near the instructors.
thankyou jessica for accompanying me. :D


i hope this is the last time i'm gonna do this.


all the low ropes elements were quite alright.
i skipped the high rope elements. XD
it's so scary.

the meals were alright, except that breakfast's TOOOOOOO oily.
& the bathing time is DAMN DAMN short.
i alone spent 30min to bathe at home.
go there, one person is only allowed to bathe less than a min.
though i exceed quite a lot. (x


bah, sleeping in tents is quite an experience.
but just don't feel comfortable with sticky bodies.
gah


2nd night was spent in the chalet.
10 person in one room.
slept with pamela, eunice, delphine & huiying.
5 people sleeping on single beds! hohoho
it was fun squeezing though. hahaha


overall it's okay.
except that i don't understand why the school like us to write so many things.
keep asking us about school values.
so boring.



off to have a nap! :D
i'm tired.
band tomorrow!

<3

loved! <3

---


stressed out from the homeworks.
i can't seem to feel comfortable unless all my homework is done.
but i just can't pull myself to do everything at one go. AH.


I'm so tired from all these.

run!

i don't understand why am i always late or almost late for band.
unless there's someone going to school with me, it's always like that.
the bus always took so long.
want taxi no taxi.
gee. just my luck.



sectionals on Night Safari.
many many to practice.
triplets to define clearly, the crescendo & so on.


tried on merry widow & a new piece today.
both not working out well.
oh my my, WHERE'S THE TIME!


i feel so stress when the sound i produce become airy or disgusting.
i hate the stupid reeds that are chipping away. for no reason.
ah!


i feel so lost. ):


-------------


went to Taman Jurong with saiful, dawn, leeling, venus & sohniya.
ate at KFC. we all ate buddy meal! :D
dawn & leeling; venus & me; saiful & sohniya!
hohoho. (: i haven't pay venus! (x
then talk & laugh like nobody's business.
as usual, we were memeking around. lol
my stomach's muscles are pain after doing sit ups for P.E sia.
weak!


then went Jurong Secondary, where sohniya's gonna get her bursary & atika getting her scholarship!
aye i can get but i cannot get. lol
sad case, but never mind! :D
then got free food.
nice leh! haha. next band camp cater food from there ah! XD


then went superbowl.
played pool. i'm better at it now! after the MINI class outing. haha
then atika, saiful, venus & sohniya played bowling.
sohniya went off earlier.
leeling, dawn & me went 7-eleven then we got something each for ourselves! hohoho

then went to the pet shop.
weird smell inside.
not much animals, just more food & toys for the pets.
i want doggggg! or rather puppy! :D
when can i get one? bah
so cute can! haha

then went back.
i'm like rushing home. :/
handphone battery went flat.
so used dawn's phone. THANKYOU!
oh saiful & leeling's too! (: ARIGATO!
then RAN HOME!
with safety woman! yay!
she ran with me lar.
we're like rushing & rushing though it's only me who is suppose to rush. lol
so she saw me ran & she ran also. hahaha


& i reached home!!
tired!
but i see my new bed i'm so happy !! HOHOHO.
i'm sleeping on it tonight! yay!

blank,

AHHHHH.
i suddenly feel i hate math so much.
how can this be when it's my strongest subject! ):
i think i'm gonna deprove, cause i seriously don't understand what the 2 math teachers are talking in class.
boo you.
stop using the O level thing to teach.
it's so ...
i want RAFEEK back.
i think he's better. LOL. at least he's patient enough . gah


i'm feeling so ..
don't-know-how-to-say.


& LEELING TWINNIE .
please don't cry. :D
please smile! :D


then.
sec 1s audition tomorrow.
i'm excited but not really excited.
lol.
i wonder how our juniors will be like.


then.
i haven't bathe & do my E Math.
gee, that chang is so ANYHOW!
what kind of english is this? but whatever. :D


then.
thanks safety woman for waiting bus with me! yay!
3 cheers for superman! :D


then.
i don't know what to say.


then.
OHYA!
16 days to S.H.E's concert!
WOOHOO! (:

memek!

i will die if this goes on.
i don't seem to be able to cope well with work. OMG.
i'm so dead.
i'm like lagging behind. ):


& i suck in all the subjects.
maybe languages are easier.
even the math & science are getting tough !
oh how i miss sec 2. ):
everything is is difficult now.

but right now,
I NEED TO SLEEP!
bye memeks!

gee

i'm tired after everyday.
how long must i tolerate this!!
ah.
adapt adapt adapt.


bye !
good night people.
have a beauty sleep!
sleeping beauty if off! (:


sigh, i wished he give us nother chance.
seems that there's no hope. :/

boo you.

it's the 2nd week of school & i'm feeling stress already!
HOW AH!!
die ahhhh.


homework homework & homework.
it's never ending work.
i finish today, next day there will be more to come.
[take a break, take a kit-kat]
but there's no break for me to take!! AHHH.


& i want to watch Hana Kimi episode 8 lar.
if not i won't even on my computer today.
so i on my dad's laptop for nothing.
& i on my computer just to blog?
haha. :/


band everyday except wednesday.
gonna do project liao.
CHIONG AHH.


seriously, i don't really like Grandfather's Clock.
maybe i need some time to adjust.
i'm just to used to playing Hannukah already. ah.


oh & it's sec 1s audition on friday & next tues!
quite excited lar.
gonna have juniors!
weet.
but still, SYF comes first.



stressedup.
bye!


*i'm starting to dislike Add. Math.
it's making my life difficult.

:D

it's a family day!
but i went out with laogong. :x
my parents went to IMM & bought my bed! costing 500++bucks you know!
ah, thank God.
i'm going to sleep on a mattress finally.
cause you know what? i'm sleeping on a 2 piece WOOD PLANK currently.
plus some kind thin cushion on it, then my bedsheet covering & that's my bed.
& the WOOD PLANK is not stucked or screwed.
so it might just go out of place & tada, i'll be on the floor. (as in the BIG HOLE in my bed.
& yay, i'm finally getting my mattress! hohoho.
i'm excited! XD


went out to buy some things.
including my Hana Kimi's 写真！
it's damn nice lar can!!
:D


it always feels great to have your loved one accompanying you around, aimlessly somehow. :D
it's not the location that matters, or whatever we're outside for, just that when you're around, i feel contented.



& Jayper Teo keep asking to me to do up the NEW class blog.
i think the blog url is damn creative lar.
it's so common, but so unique as a class blog url. :D


tata, off to school again tomorrow.
BRING TIE!
& i love mondays.
cause we can report laterrrrr! (:

are you ready?

OK.
I know & I can sense the urgency.
i did thought of solutions before, but after analyzing them, it's like none could work.

firstly, even if we've got many many solutions, suggestions, pointers & etc, those who don't bother to follow, listen & get working, what's the use of it then?
& how do we get or ENLIGHTEN them, telling them SYF is round the corner, there's no time to waste?
it all starts with attitude lar.
i don't see the point when some of the band members are trying hard to play their parts well & some are the opposite.
maybe there isn't any who don't bother, but they might think it's okay/acceptable already, or they think they're doing well even enough though it's still not up to expectation.
or maybe some have already given up, cause they just think they can't do it, they can't play well, they're already doing their best.
but that's an excuse.
& everything's back to their attitude towards this whole thing.


how to get everyone to sense the urgency?


actually i feel quite sad.
we worked hard for both pieces, merry widow & rhapsody for hannukah. (maybe more on the latter)
but we just couldn't make it, so it's like all the efforts are thrown into the dustbin when we do not want it anymore. ):
okay, i shall admit i can't play that well.
but i worked hard for it, it just make me feel kind of depress.
but never mind, we shall work VERY VERY hard for variations on grandfather's clock OKAY!
JIA YOU CMB!


i think we should plan what to do for each band practice, be it sectionals, individuals or even full band.
PLAN OURSELVES. not just the section leaders. maybe this might help.
planning is important lar.
& we must have a goal.
we must achieve the goal after every practice.
like learn finish all the semiquavers, or the notes or blah blah.
so it's like after every practice, there's an improvement.
so that practice wouldn't be wasted.
i thought this might be a good solution?
but it just depends on themselves, whether they want to do it or not.


& i don't agree that we should just practice & practice.
without knowing what we're gonna practice.
& then rely on the section leaders, taking it for granted that they will help us solve our problems.
they are there to guide us, not solving our problems.
we know our problems, if not, section leaders can point out to you.
but that doesn't include HELPING you to solve it.
it's like spoonfeeding. it's no use after all.
the next time you come back to the same problem, are your section leaders always there to solve it for you? NO.
so ya, learn to solve your own problems yourselves.


maybe these could improve the band?
but that still depends on their attitude, again.
no choice, they've gotta WANT to do it, not being FORCED to do it.
or they won't improve, they won't progress, & we'll end up like the situation now again.
this already repeated for 2 times.
there's NO time for another time.
so yeah, it's up to the members already.



p/s the whole post is only my OWN opinion. i might be wrong, so give more suggestions too! :D




i believe if there's a will, there's a way.


[grammer & typo errors edited.]

blah

no comments to everything.
so screwed.

bye.
band tomorrow from 7am-6pm.
11 hours! OFF TO SLEEP.

homeworks!

2nd day of school & HOMEWORKS are here! :/

• physics textbook vol 2 pg 1.
• Add. Math 4 questions
• history textbook chap 1 - do all thinking questions
• read biology text chap 1 & 2.

ah, dead.
i feel so sleepy everyday.
still need to keep myself wake after lunch. this is ridiculous.
i want my sec 2 life back. ):
i don't know if i can survive through this disaster.
hopefully i don't fail my subjects. that's a bonus already!

bye.
band tomorrow.
cca open house for sec 1s on saturday! (pray i don't screw up)

nineteen months :D

黑啤十九月！


first day of school.
got into my new class. it was still okay lar, not as bad as i thought.
at least everything's coming out fine. :D


hope that 3/5 will be bonded!

oh how much i miss 2/2! ):

holiday ends.

ah! holidays are over!
school's reopening, quite excited but not really excited. LOL.


woke up early in the morning around 8.40am.
i set my alarm at 8am, but i refused to wake up until the 8.40am. :D
and guess what, i thought we were suppose to meet at 9am.
and everyone's still sleeping except venus & me!
leeling thought the badminton game today is cancelled. lol
& i keep calling saiful, leon & leeling until the the voicemail message came out.
was so impatient cause i called all of them so so so many times & they never pick up!!
all sleeping sia!

keep calling venus on the way there.
keep rushing her to get out of her house. hahah.
& i reached before her.
ohya, i fell down on my butt !! BOOHOOHOO. pain sia.
so memek, everyone look at me. LOL so paiseh.

& finally, saiful picked up & say he don't want come cause so early. lol
& leon called after don't know how many hours when venus & I were already at leeling's house playing PayDay. LOL.
& i manage to get through leeling after i got theresa's phone number from jessica to get leeling's house number.
BIG cycle right!
so leeling came down a while later with her racket.
was playing under the void deck with venus while waiting.
funny lar, HOHOHOHOHO. :D
then play play play, maybe about for 1/2 hour only, then venus hit the shuttlecock & it went up the shelter which was so much taller than venus! & she tried to get it down. -.-
memek right! & there goes my shuttlecock. lol

so we decided to find something from leeling's house to play.
so we took Scooter. LOL.
& we ride around outside her apartment, & off we go! back to her house. LOL
& we started playing around. i went to play with her keyboard.
i think the noise created by the keys alone is louder than the sound coming out from it. lol
& don't know what venus's doing.
leeling was walking around finding something to do i think, then she also play play play.
then we watch Channel U which at that time has got no shows. we keep watching the commercials, the superstars MV keep showing. -.-
then we started playing PayDay in her room.
memek saiful came halfway after cutting his hair at EC house. lol
play play play. siok keep calling to ask me go her house.
& I WON!!
and because i got to go, i distribute out all my PAPER money. LOL. pui pui. i meant the PayDay money.
i'm the richest you know!
& they were so happy :D
and off i go.

& i missed the 179 bus. -.-
so waited and waited.
& i walk to her MYSELF. it's my 2nd time going there OK! (:

print, copy, cut & paste.
do here to there. so tiring one.
ate my Maggi noodles lunch there & had green tea. :D
then do do do again, so tiring again. lol
spent a long long time.
& siok keep scolding her sister, so fierce one. lol
& i saw this somehow like a contract with their mother & even signed by them before going home. haha!
the sister quite cute lar, even though quite disturbing. :x
& she's quite creative. (: potential OK!
do for a long long time but only done one & a half board.
don't care already, so tired. lol
ate chicken too. stupid siok keep giving me eat, want me fat some more ah!
then watch tv a while, eat eat eat. :x
then play piano, with my LONG nails.
gosh.

then her dad drove me to the 99 bus-stop near Jiaqiang's place.


haiyo.
i still haven't done with my 10 sentences!
tata

chiong ah!

GOGOGO!
i'm ALMOST done with Hong Lou Meng's report! :D
i did all the sections and left with the 10 sentences thing.
ANYONE TELL ME? :x
aye, only manage to find 3.
and there i go, leaving one day to school reopen!

& i'm playing badminton tomorrow!
at leeling's place there.
& mohammedsaifulboharibinsulaiman refuses to go cause he don't want to wake up so early. :/
but afternoon i need go do project already luh.
eunice and huiying are going in the morning!!
ah, jiayou!
i wonder if we can finish the project. lol
so last minute luh!!


& lala, venus went offline already!
oh i thought it's 10+ only!
11.54pm liao!
my gosh, need wake up early tomorrow!
CHIONG AHHHH!


wait till i watch finish Hana Kimi episode 7! :D

what a new year.

yeah, it's 01 01 2007.
& i was counting down in Marina Bay MRT station.
actually not counting down, but just spent the last minute of 2006 in the train waiting for it to move.
what a countdown!
cause people give wrong information, telling us that the fireworks is held at Marina Bay. -.-
& the staff keep announcing about it & told us to go back to Raffles Place or City Hall.
blah, so leaving some hope, we went to Raffles Place.
we got down, it's damn crowded, everybody's running.
you can feel the vibration of the fireworks on the floor!
people all get excited, daddy & me just ran with the crowd.
WE SIMPLY THOUGHT MUMMY WAS IN FRONT.
cause she alight from the MRT before us. of course we'll think she's in front.
& it's so crowded. how would she expect to us to see her.
when everybody's squeezing like nobody's business.
& guess what? she was waiting at the control station for us.
& that time, we were already upstairs trying to see the fireworks.
cause the building there was so damn tall, i can only hear the vibration which goes BABOOOOOM BABOOOOOM and nothing else.
so we ran ran ran, & finally catch 5 seconds of the fireworks.
then at this minute, my mum called.
she asked where we were, and as we thought she was in the crowd in front of us, so i said, "we're behind you!" even though i didn't see her.
that's just a prediction. :/
then we talk talk talk, and realised she's not even in the crowd but still waiting at the control station, she got so angry with us.

gee. & she gave daddy & me that BLACK face.
i don't understand.
& i don't know what's wrong.
is because she didn't catch the fireworks or my dad & I didn't go and look for her OR WHAT?!
so 3 of us didn't talk. until i sneezed & i got my tissue & my dad was so sweet that he offer to keep my USED tissue in his pocket.
& my mum was somehow jealous(my opinion) that she also gave hers(used tissue) to my dad.
& my dad tried to crack a joke out of it, saying that my mum was clever to do so. -.-
blah blah blah, we reached home.
QUIETLY.

so my mum went to bathe.
& when she came out of the bathroom, & i went to bathe, she started quarrelling with my dad.
SO LOUD.
i wonder why the police didn't come.
i was in the bathroom, & i can hear each word they said.
& they shouted & shouted words out as if there is no tomorrow.
& i got so scared in the bathroom.
they quarrelled through, from the time i started bathing until i stop.
& i came out, i walked past my mum, & she shouted in my face & told me to talk to her.
OK, so i stood in front of her, & she started scolding me, for not letting the lift door close before my dad came in.
ISN'T THAT CHILDISH?!
but i refused to talk anymore to her, saying SORRY will solve that.
& i went back to my room.

-cried-
thanks for being there.



then i slept at 3.09am.
and woke up at 12+++++pm.
and i'm still tired.



and i haven't do my Hong Lou Meng.
i'm going crazy.
someone, HELP ME!


& i hate the corruption yesterday night/midnight.
everybody was smsing those messages, and my phone become crazy.
i sent so many messages and i don't even know if they received.
GAH.



happy new year.

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