restless

i stepped out of the band room at 7.12pm.
reached my door step at 7.33pm.
im darn darn tired okay.

was asked to play the esplanade pieces.
oh my.
its in a total mess lar!!
grrr
and the hall is damn small.
and so hot!!!
was longing to get a break or finish it man.
did rehearsal with the drama members.
wow.
their acting is way good lar.
so touching.
but cant watch everything.
had to play the pieces.
my eyes are mostly on the scores.
trying to sightread everything.
AHHHH

and everybody went home when we were released.
sobbs. ):
had to go home alone.
so decided to walk home.
yeah. and i did.
even climb up to the 11th storey okay.
cos' i love the quiet moments.
i didnt know i could manage to get up so far.
i thought i might just give up halfway and take the lift.
well, DETERMINATION.
yays.

got home den realised got lotsa hw actually.
AHHH.
and the new math teacher so yucky lar.
dunnoe what the hell he toking about.
ownself wrong still say is purposely want us to spot the mistake.
darn lame lar.
we shld cherish mr rafeek man!!
hurhurhur.
3 more days to tahan him lar.
boring.
LESSONS ARE ALWAYS BORING.
and tml's wed.
oh man.
time fly too fast.
my life tempo too fast.
i can't catch up!!
=/

#157

POST #157. (:

MUAHAHA.
i shall type crap now.
i just don't feel like talking bout my pathetic life for a moment.
GEE.

OKAY.
I MUST STAY CALM.
for the sake of piano;
for the sake of band.
for the sake of my future.
for the sake of everything.
OKAY.

man;
i don't know what to say.
okay.
youjing,
JUST STAY CALM AND COMPLETE EVERYTHING OKAY.

*PW - find ways and methods of abortion.
oh my. (x

searching..

i don't know how to keep me happy the whole day long.
it seems so impossible.
):
i don't like this kind of life.
i don't wanna end up in this way.
i'm searching for the route.
to where i really i wanna be.
i will do it. (:

-------------

today was okay.
but i felt lazy the whole day long.
i don't even feel like listening to the teacher.
i feel so tired. ):
i didn't do all my work.
i'm upset with myself.
and work are piling up.
AHHHH

lessons were sooo disgusting.
not fun and so damn boring.
can't the teachers just change a way of teaching.
so outdated lar. =/
common test didnt manage to finish actually.
ms ong was standing beside me at the last min somemore. O.O
i gave up lars.
i don't even want to care.
but i must. it's counted you see.

maths olympiad boring lar.
i feel like sleeping than listening to her talk lar.
dunnoe what she talking.
make me go dizzy only.
so stupid me.
every qns also ask fiona lar. so pro. (x
told jessica we can just get a certificate of participation for the maths olympiad competition. =/
my maths deproving i think.
whatevers.
and i skipped individuals!! oh my.
jessica did too!!
O.O out of the blue moon eh!
'cos she's simply tooooo stressed.
and im dying out of tiredness.
went home with the hornsters.
lol.
den chatted with liling along the way home.
think the band might just collapsed after our seniors step down. ):
gosh. AHHHH
one year of effort and time and everything is simply wasted.
sometimes really wonder if its really worth it.
mosting tiring and busiest cca.
and we got very little progress.
i don't know why.
and some quit halfway; some didn't wanna turn up.
our batch can make the band fall lar. ):
haiis.
I WILL MISS MY SENIORS.
okay, jiamin i tel you now.
I WILL CRY WHEN YOU ALL LEAVE.
): cant imagine what will happen after that.
boohoos.

and i just don't love mondays.
so darn tired.
and always left me and jessica in the classroom.
stupid lar.
and i don't like holding the key.
it will only make me feel guilty lar.
GOODBYE.

stand on my own.

i walked up 20 flights of stairs on my own; all alone.
it was my soul who gave me the courage and strength.
yes, i did it.
MYSELF.
without my mummy.

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went to the library this morning.
was supposed to meet miaoling at the bus-stop opp. skool at 10.30am
and im late again.
okay. this time i wanted to get out of the house at 10.10am OKAY.
and by that time i was prepared to go off when my dad stopped me.
and what came up to my brain was just, "OH SHIT. PIANO AGAIN."
yeah.
it was piano.
he wanted me to practise on the piano before going out.
it was like.. AHHH
he's making me a UNpunctual person.
i wanted to be on time; he stopped me.
and as usual, my breakfast time sucks.
his nagging away again.
HE'S EVEN NAGGIER THAN MY MUM.
EEEEE
i stuffed everything into my mouth and shut the bedroom door behind me.
it don't feel good. AT ALL.
i HATE THE FEELING of being FORCED.
yuckidadodo.
im upset. ):

finally, 20min later i got out.
and the feeling was not so nice when i banged the door.
i wanted to let them know im pissed.
but i'm sorry. )x

reached there.
took bus to meet joanne.
she was carrying a handbag. haha.
weird but nice lar. (: lady-like ma. cheers!
then saw lao gongg~ in the library.
did the proposal, ate 2 packets of crackers, did some homework AND not forgetting my camera. (:
yupyup. PHOTOS!! yay
shall upload some later (:
im feeling lazy. lol

den went long john silvers for lunch.
yum yum.
and went to watch ppl ice-skate.
woah. freezing there sia.
but the people skate until very nice.
so envy. (x
soo! i wanna go ice-skating!!
people; im deciding on the monday of the march holiday.
any comments?
shall confirm in skool tml den. heex

den went popular.
bought sketch book and 2 blue pens.
den settle the sum of money outside popular. -.-
joanne so toilet so long one.
make us wait so long. hehe
den remembered that need to buy newspaper.
den went to the shop.
THE UNCLE SO DAMN IDIOT LAR.
we nva even flipped and read thru the newspaper den there accused us liao.
like that got ppl will buy your newspaper?!
I PUKE AH!
den walked off lo.
took 333 home with miaoling.
got home wanna find newspaper article den kena scolded!
mummy wants to me practise piano and prepare for piano lesson.
walau. pissed lar.
just come back only; PIANO.!!
play play play. set off for paragon.
as usual. BORING JOURNEY.
so slept. =/ *yawns*

piano lesson was alright.
it will be even better if my mum's not there. =/
she's watching me when the lesson was finishing and asked my teacher how was it.
even my teacher know im trying hard.
not my mum. she dun agree. walau.
YEAH YEAH. HIGH HOPES EH?!
cant even force a smile on my face out of myself.
walked away alone. leaving my mum behind.
i dun feel like talking to her.
i didn't talk to her until when we are on the bus.
'cos my card no money liao.
den a woman tapped me and told me the uncle is calling for me.
COS I DIDNT SCAN MY CARD.
i did told my mum, "没有钱了"
but she dun understand until the uncle called.
so embarrassed. =/
den halfway the bus turned and i lost my balance and lie on my mum.
my gosh. and she said, "不需要那么亲密吧"
den we laughed. haha.
but after that was okay. cos mummy asked for a sweet from me. LOL.

got off the bus, the radio strap came off.
was scolded again; for being so rough. *faints*
walked off again. quick and light steps.
ran at the traffic junction.
walked the other way to get home.
i thought i was abnormal; i wanted to shout into the sky.
but i didn't.
i didn't take the lift but walked the stairs.
exactly 20 flights. 10 on each i think.
i wanted to walk up the stairs.
all by myself; ALONE.
i succeeded.
i cherished the quiet moments.
the trees rustling; the leaves swinging.
and i ended up behind my mum; at the door.

I WILL PROVE TO THEM.
I WILL . DEFINITELY .
I WILL PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS.
NO MATTER WHAT;
I WILL NOT ALLOW THEM TO LOOK DOWN ON ME.
I DID WORK HARD.
THEY JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND ME.
wait;
i'm still finding a listening ear.

idiot

AHHH.
idiotic dad.
cant stand him any longer.
STOP FUSSING BOUT THE PIANO EXAM.
you are anxious
SO AM I.
im much more nervous den you.
AND STOP SAYING I DIDNT PRACTISE ENOUGH.
even i go out i practise on my retarded fingers.
YOU DUN SEEM TO UNDERSTAND.
den just SHUT IT OKAY.
pissed off by you.
ARGHHS.
I WILL PROVE TO YOU OKAY.
I WILL PASS.
SHUDDAP LARS!!

class foto

CLASS 2 squared 0six!

KBOX!

YAY.
kbox for the 2nd time.
hees. but only girl sia! =/
so weird and awkward larr. haha

morning so pissed off lar.
kena scolded by dad again.
for not practising enough for piano!!
2 weeks left!! ahhh
wanted to go out lar.
so no choice must tahan what he say and face the music! -.-
den played 40min of piano.
wanna go off liao den realise haven eat breakfast.
almost choked ah!
i eating den daddie keep naggin and naggin.
trying to brainwash me ah!!

den chiong off le.
meet jason den go lot 1 lo.
den go arcade find eugene and zp.
man. so noisy dere.
and i dunnoe what they playing lar.
keep fighting only.
hahaha. whatevers.
until eugene send me one msg say what call siokhwee.
but keep calling den number busy!
haiyo!
call her hp den dunnoe who talking down dere.
not chinese not english. =/
den after a while she call back.
den keep talking and crapping and talking and crapping.
hehehe.
talk a lot !!
hp bill i think burst liao. =/
YAY. i know her secret liao.
MUAHAHA. *shhh*
went k box. they still queueing up.
den i keep talking.
den suddenly sae rm full must wait until 1.30pm.
forgot went where.
i almost walked around the whole of lot 1.
up and down up and down. -.-
keep talking on the fone.
but is eugene one. hahaha.
den she say mama come back.
so went to return him.

went mac.
they all ate apple pie den i eat sweet!
geegles. took some stupid fotos.
HAHAHA. (:
featuring most of darren's weird face. LOL

den walked around lo.
i wanna buy new shoe!!!
until bout 1.20pm liao den walked up slowly.
wait wait. den finally went in le
ate the mui fan .
yum yum.
den keep sing sing sing.
listening to them.
SO FUNNY!! HAHAHA
den was forced to sing the tong hua lar. -.-
they sing sing sing again!!
can laugh until siao also.
all the high notes. haha
den need to go liao
sing the wu ding. =/
i dunnoe the lyrics lar.
like asking me to sight read a new piece sia. (x
but was quite okay lar.
haha
den went off le.

running all the way.
reached MRT station den the train just went!
AHHH.
so suay. den need wait 6 min!
reach chinese garden den ran all the way home.
and guess what!
reach home den realise parents not at home lo!
walau eh!
waste my energy.
but train stamina lar. hahaha
den next time can win shafie! hehe
den keep chatting le lo.

gotta bathe den play piano le.
mama's nagging once again. =/
stupid routine;
THE NAGGINGS!!

anyway.
nice day. (:
I NEED MORE LIFE!!! YIPPEEES!

THANKS YOU GUYS! LOVE YA ALL!!

EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS.
COS THEY JUST ROCK ROCK ROCK!!

SAIFUL, ATIKA and IVAN!
THANKS YA ALL. =D
i might not be able to find my wallet back if you all weren't there.
i might just be crying pathetically beside the stupid dustbin if you all weren't there.
i might just give up on finding it back on my own.
i might just get out of my mind and thought it was end of the world.
my mind might just go totally blank without you guys.
i might just collapsed in the middle of the road.
i might just go crazy and stand there like a block of wood instead.

yeah, all because im a foolish and clumsy girl you all know.
not many people can just understand me.
they think me as acting blur or adorable.
when i don't even have the time for that.
i admit that im very blur and careless.
but i didn't really wanna rely on others.
i might be too dependant.
but i'm not that kind of person that some of the people think.
i can get hurt easily by just a few words.
and some just think im acting.
i don't like this.
they don't understand me.
and i hate them for jumping into a conclusion and judge me for that.
and spreading rumours which are not true.
i hate this.
and there's just some people around me like that.
i dont like it at all.
THEY JUST DON'T KNOW ME. SO BACK OFF.

and once again,
THANKS ATIKA, SAIFUL AND IVAN for showing that you guys care.
*HUGGIES*
having such friends just rocks.
i don't need many.
i just need some.
which really cared. (:


the story goes like this;

after band, went to the shop there to buy food.
went to the nearby viod deck to eat.
with leeling, atika and saiful.
after eating, walked to the bus-stop to take bus. (ivan was with us while walking)
bus came, got up, looked for my wallet everywhere in my bag.
couldn't find. panicked.
and ivan dug out 60 cents from his wallet and pay my bus fare.
went to the rest of them. told them i couldn't find my wallet.
so afraid. saiful and atika insisted on going back with me to find the wallet with ivan.
was so thankful for them. got down and ran.
though we stopped and ran and stopped.
we stay together, putting our brains together to recover and think of the possible places the wallet might have dropped.
while ivan ran all the way himself to find. 0.o
ran and ran. couldn't find at the place. PANICKED ONCE AGAIN.
ivan say the shop auntie didn't see it too.
den went to the block next to the shop there and pour everything out from my bag.
NOT IN THERE! cried.
den ran again to the dustbin. even put my hands in to search.
ran again to the bus-stop.
almost got knocked down by a car.
finally!! when was thinking that i might not be able to find the wallet anymore, walking back to saiful and atika there.
and then; an indian man saw ivan and me.
asked him if he saw a wallet. as i was there once again to search.
he just took it out from his pocket!!
OH MY GOD!!! THANKS GOD!!!
so; ran back. told them the good news.
and took bus home.
A HAPPY ENDING!! =D
thanks thanks thanks.


p.s.
if some of you think you read this post and feel like puking.
by all means go ahead. and you definitely don't have feelings.
unless you think just simply a wallet, den too bad.
it means much more than just a wallet.


and also.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON. =D

#150. eve of lao gong's birthday!

yippee yay.
i dont feel stress.
i'm happy.
WEEEE~!!

and ms khoo siok hwee!
dont make me play catching with you again tml okay!
you love it too much.
but make me so tired lar!
hahaha.
nonono more taking of my wallet kay!
what am i saying man?
LOL. 'cos im happy. yay. (:

today was FUN.
though lessons were as boring.
P.E.!! yay. i love running.
but not playing catching. HAHA.
time to slim down eh!!
=/

OKAY.
and one thing made me UNhappy.
BACKSTABBERS!!
EEEEEE!
suck suck suck.
i hate gossipers.
YOU JUST SIMPLY SUCK LAR.
i really detest you.
i don't wanna get close to you!!
you are too scary to be with.
too threatening. eww

Nevermind bout that.
fei yue ppl say he likes our class!
yay.
but some ppl just so extra lar.
haha.
and i love drawing.
its so fun!!

band; did the set piece.
so damn boring.
all same rhythem. =/
hahaha.

20days to PIANO EXAM.
TING TING DUN CURSE ME FAIL OKAY.
I WILL PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS!!!

oh whatever.

dot dot dot dot.
many many many [dots]


okay. fine.
whatever.
its like just kidding lar.
play play only ma.

"no wonder pplz say even ur closest pplz cant be trust
yuan lai shi zhe ge dao li"
quoted from that someone.
oh fine.
if there's no trust between your loved ones and close friends,
THERE WILL BE NO SUCH THING CALL LOVE OR FRIENDSHIP OR KINSHIP.
okayokay okay.
i might be in the wrong lar.
but why must reply in this manner lor.
i dont like this.
I NEVER WILL.
im totally hurt.
OH SHUT UP.
im sorry.



and dad keep naggin about piano.
WHY AM I SO STUPID?
why cant i just prove to him that he's wrong.
I WILL PASS.
dont look down on me.
the days are numbering.
I DONT WANNA A FAIL OKAY.
shut it and back off.
im damn tired .
< / 3

HAPPIE BURFDAE AH-MA!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIQAH!!!
YOU ARE 14 NOW!!

geegles!
and jessica and me did peer teaching today!!
oh my gosh.
scary.
)x
i freaked out in the middle actually. HAHA
okayokay.
i shall try to calm down tml. (:

lessons were as boring as usual.
english do descriptive ws.
den every grp have to find one person to describe.
and siok hwee's grp rote bout me.
AHH
they said im scared of six-legged creatures. =/
and miss khoo still wrote I LOOK LIKE A GHOST cos face so white!!!
omg. AHH
val likes to stay in hotel 81 eh? =x
hahaha. and works at geylang eevryday. HAHA. craziness.

went to West Mall with lao gongg~, siok hwee, eunice and xiuting.
bought ccj's present. (x
so lame actually. haha
ate at kou fu.
the yong tau fu is nice. =D
yumm.
walk around see see look look but nva buy anything!
all broke ah!
haha.

finally get some life. YAYNESS.
i love this.
going out is so fun.
once in a while is sooo fine.
have a break!
kit-kat. (x

tml will be a better day.
(:

tml got peer teaching!!!

TOMORROW PEER TEACHING!!!

AHHHH.
how how how?
i've got serious, indeed very serious stage fright.
my voice can just run any old how any TADA.
i will break my voice.
=/
im not a guy kay. HAHA

okay.
i just came back from band.
gees.
and ate my yum yum dinner.
egg fried rice + crabstick BIG DISH + crabstick soup!
omg.
crabbies come my way!! but its nice. (x

and.
i shall try to rest.
for i need to study D&T later.
and play piano.
which i had math and geog to do.
and also had to study geog.
oh my, what am i talking about?

AND.
i dont feel like typing anymore.
(x

I WANT CLASS OUTING!!

I WANT CLASS OUTING!!

#145

OH HELLO.
im back again.
i've been quite hardworking to blog everyday eh? (x
cos i love this.
I WANNA LEAVE MY MEMORIES HERE. (:
i rather type than write, cos im lazy. (x
but some things arent meant to be shown here.
and there it goes in my music diary. yay.

#145.

boring lessons as usual.
nothing much to write about.
and i think mr david ng was going around to every class to take photos. (:
its a tradition when you're leaving.
oh how sad. ):
he's way much nicer than miss ng lar. =/
and almost had tears flowing down. 0.o
okay. i might be a bit too emotional.
but its really sad lar.
and got to noe that he's actually like 18 yrs old only!
in other words, he might be still studying eh?
who knows? but who cares man.
he's a nice teacher i think.
and our class is like so what lar.
he come in when the bell goes for recess den half the class was like BOOing away.
no manners lar.
no self-disipline i should say.
whatevers.
so we took a class photo. (:
hope to get it soon.
haha.
im crazy over photos. (x
anyway im not zi lian okay.

was shouted at after the pathetic recess lar.
[dots]
all cos of that khoo siok hwee took away my wallet and put it in his bag. =/
i was screaming away.
okay. im also in the wrong lar.
i haven been making noise pollution in the class.
and i almost wanna explode today.
IM VERY STRESSED. i dont noe why.
oh come on. let me off!
i thought tickling is well, i dont mind.
i hate and hate and DETESTS ppl to take away my things.
i dont like to run around like a mad monkey trying to retrieve my things back from the stupid trainer.
IM NOT AN ANIMAL.
IM A HUMAN.
oops. sorry.

and im feeling horrible after that lar.
and that siok hwee still make me laugh.
okay.
I ALWAYS CAN LAUGH.
even tho im angry.
serious.
okay lar. when im not really very very angry

common test was rushing like hell lar.
dont really understand the passage
but heck care lar.
its over !
whatevers

went library with miaoling.
got excited cos first time going home so early lar.
okay, not home.
going out of the SCHOOL only.
lol. but still, im loving it. (:
saw a lot commonwealthians along the way.
sec ones esp. =/
saw my juniors. one in library.
another in the JEC. (x

borrowed 4 books.
tho i seldom read.
but miaoling keep saying its nice until i really feel like reading NOW.
but MORE MATH TO DO.
aiks. boring
still have to find more info bout the chinese peer teaching for jessica and me is teaching tml!!!
oh gosh.
i've got stage fright lar.
and im freaking scared.
i might just screwed up lar
so sorry if i really do that.
my voice can just go out of place from the mic. =/

okay.
i haven't find someone to talk to.
seriously, i need a listening ear.
but i dont noe where to start.
and how to start.
im too confused.
):
homework piles up my day again.

oh its sunday!

geegles.
its another sunday. aiks.
i love sunday. =/
first,
need to chiong homework.
then,
need to practise piano.
finally,
there's piano lesson to attend.

and every lesson.
no good news.
for she knows, my playing isnt up to standard. ):
boohoos.

she wanted me to play 2hrs per day.
and its like soooo impossible lar.
there's too many things to do.
but mummy's right i think.
just focus on piano for like 3 more weeks.
when everything's over.
take a break and do other things.
rather than busy doing so many things at a time,
and get everything messed up.
failed everything?
nah. that's not what i want.

OKAY!
so tomorrow.
I SHALL PLAY 2HOURS OF PIANO.
anyway, tml's lesson until 12pm.
early dismissal for css students!
hooray!(:
3 cheers for commonwealth!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!

more homework to do.
shall do some later! yes, i promised okay.
andd.
tml need to go skool at 7.30am to "renovate" the notice board again.
okay. ON MY WAY!

oh yeps!
a crazy person wearing a white mask in a car dat drove past the bus-stop behind takashimaya just now.
and he screamed!
so lame lar. HAHA
but everybody laugh.
(x nice one, whoever it is.
oh whatevers.

waited for the bus like 30min.
cos me and mummy missed the bus! =x
we were just opp. the bus-stop at the traffic light when 502 came.
it was like AHH!
missed it.
and mummy kept on nagging.
and insisted that we shld walk thru takashimaya the next time.
oh who cares.
just slept on the bus. (:
bus sick will never get off me i think. =/

i might be suffering from loneliness or depression.
i dont feel happy when im alone.
but weird me.
when i dont feel happy, (alone)
i feel the breeze of silence.
which make me feel peaceful.
yet, LONELY. >.<

SOMEONE TALK TO ME.
I'VE GOT LOTS OF THINGS TO SPIT OUT.
BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO!
TEACH ME! ):

and lao gongg~ created a new blog.
click here
nice one.
go tag too!
lao gongg~!
thank me for promoting it! (x

pink panther!

oh horray. (:

went to meet miaoling and huiying at skool dere de bus stop. =/
and again. was late.
and miaoling keep calling to decide on what to wear.
in the end, wore the pink and black IP zone top and pink shorts. (x
the bus was very very crowded.
cant even balanced ourselves. hahaha
huiying got to sit not long after while me and miaoling moved in.
we got to sit too! (x
den she say she wanna see the road. =/
to recognise lao gongg~'s hse. so we got up.
and alighted a stop after!

bought the limited edition mentos (with the sour taste).
yummy. simply loves sweets. (x
den went up to lao gongg~'s hse.
almost same like eunice's one. haha
quite messy tho`. =x
so many comp! one of them use to play war craft somemore! -.-
and lao gongg~ create a character named after me. oh my.
the character looked SO WEIRD AND 'oh my god'!
the hair and everything! ahhhH!
and its level 1 mage. -.-

played with her little hamsters!!! so cuteeee!!! (x
loving them man! hahaha. tho the black one kept on shitting on my palm. )x
lol. but they are way too cute lar!
huiying and miaoling cant resist too!
finally get ourselves to put them back and do some research on PW.
okay. the research was quite a short one. haha
easy peasy. got the websites when we got there.
lao gongg~ already have it.
all we do was read thru (tho not all, cos its darn disgusting), den copy and paste.
LOL. and we played!
the gu zheng. tho i dont noe how to. listen to lao gongg~ play lo.
the keyboard. a bit dusty tho. (x and not long enuff.
dats why its not called piano. hahaha. keep on playing! lol.
so soft the keys. make my fingers slipped!
played the typing test thing at www.typingtest.com
fun one. i won lao gongg~! yay! (:
den played with hamsters once again.
took photos too!

finally off for lunch at 2.45pm. =/
ate mcdonalds at Bukit Batok.
while huiying went home.
den told saiful to come.

den went to West Mall.
wanted to buy hairband for miaoling as her BELATED birthday present.
saiful came and told us that PINK panther's time slot was 3.30pm.
and he talked to us that time was like 3.34pm!
so we just put everything down and chiong up to the cinema lo.
hahaha. den bought the tickets.
went in. just started not long. and its only the introduction.
might as well said that we went in the correct timing!
without needing to watch those stupid advertisements! (x
so funny! keep laughing.
but so cold also! the more me and miaoling laugh, the colder we get.
HAHAHA. but its worth it.
cos tooo funny!

after that miaoling keep saying she wanna go home.
haha. a bit naggy lar. (x
wanted to buy a watch.
went to the particular shop.
stayed dere quite long and made a lot of noise!
think the shopkeeper not happy with us. HAHA. =/
den we leave lor. lols.
talk talk talk shop shop shop.
den saw eugene! (the drum major)
was quite shocked. den me and saiful wave to him.
haha. just wanted to avoid him den we took the lift.
den went out.
saiful say dun wan go home. so decided to go lot 1 a while.
felt hungry. den they all say i pregnant!
den say bout the INS2 all those stuff.
wat pineapple all those. LOL! siao liao!
bought the fried chicken chop. $3.
yum yum. (dat time jia xin bought)
miaoling and lao gongg~ also ate.
den eat until so spicy.
bought sweettalk's strawberry ice-blended. (x
yay. <3 strawberries!

finally decided to go home.
took MRT and lao gongg~ alight at bukit gombak.
saiful, miaoling and me den go take bus.
told them shld take the opp. side one dun believe.
den we took 187 and back to lao gongg~'s hse! -.- (the way to causeway point)
so got down from the bus and took back. =/



i need some silent moments.
i suddenly miss the old days when we are together. =/

quizes

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

<3 chocolates are just way too yummy! (:

Your Winter Look is Cute

You always bring color to a dreary winter day!

Your Perfume is Glow

Fresh, sexy, and clean. You're real, intimate, and exciting. Your lush sensuality appeals to men... And you're as sexy as Jennifer Lopez. Power scents: Orange flower, grapefruit, and citrus.

Your Toes Should Be Red

You pretend to be an old fashioned girly girl, but you're secretly a naughty girl deep down. Your ideal guy: Tall, strong, and handsome - with a devilish twinkle in his eye. Stay away from: Nice, safe men. They won't really give you what you want!

Your Passion is Pink!

You're the type of woman that would never get described as passionate... Oh but you can be passionate at times - you just don't let it show. Your passion most shows through in your sweet and optimistic attitude. And chances are, most people are very passionate about you!

OH! too correct! (x

Your Inner Pop Princess Is Hilary Duff

"I'm shedding Shedding every color Trying to find a pigment of truth Beneath my skin" You're sweet and cute, but a little more complex than that.

You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace. Your vibe: Kind and gentle Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend

more of this quizes later. (:

backstabbers sucks big time.

BACKSTABBERS SUCK BIG TIME!.

YUCK. i hate this.
THEY SUCK SUCK SUCK.

dont act innocent.
think you are friendly?!
i see the wrong person. YOU SUCK.
dont ever judge a person by the appearance. SO FAKE. DAMN DAMN FAKE LAR.
judge me NOT. just shut it and back off.
you are damn irritating. AIKS.

GRR. so pissed off lar.
some ppl just shucks. they act friendly in front of you and backstab you behind your back.
make you think that they are such 'good' friends.
and actually they think you are such a stupid fool who fall into the traps.

and;
i finally agree to some phrases i read before.
they said that some of them hate you, backstab you 'cos they are jealous of you.
next. they dun like the feeling of being left out.
they wanna create topics to talk about when its not true at all.
and that's how rumours come about.
the person who started it just dont have a heart.
just wanna let the victim feel so bad. eeks.
or;
they think their so called fame and face is lost.
they are envy of your life.
but they dont wanna you to be good.
so they started going around telling things that are so fake.
others believed and think the opposite.
making the person's life once again, so dull.
AND THEY JUST ACT INNOCENT.
and they still can act as if nothing had happened.
and think that they are as close to you.

SUCH PPL REALLY SUCK.
so threatening to be with.
they are too scary.
really.
you dont noe that you might be the next victim.
and the backstabber is just right beside you.
whom you thought that she might be a 'good' friend or even 'BEST' friend of yours. EWWW

and some ppl.
wanting things that they knew themselves they cant do.
but just because of the fame.
disgusting. puke!
stop acting strong when you are so weak.

AHHHHH.
i just hate that b*tch.
GRRR.

darren-
sherlock holmes in action. =/

the whole day was fine.
except for the backstabbers who made my day.
eeyurs.
i need councelling i think.
oh gosh. too much to do and say.
dont noe how to express it.
boohoos.
i need true friends.
):
the friends who cares. NOT MIND who you are.
haiis. =/

just to be honest,
i just think that the guys in our class are more united than the girls.
less backstabbing i think. =/
they seem so together.
the girls wont do that anyway.
some dont even care.
too many to care?
i dont think so. its just the matter if the thought is there.
aiks.
i envy the guys. really.
for they care for each other. except for one. -.-
hurs.

I WANT MY FRIENDS BACK.
衣服新的好，朋友旧的好。
我珍惜那段永恒的友情。
我想念你们！):

#140

gees.
today is just like any other day.
as boring.
NO LIFE AT ALL.
oh.
i dont love my life. =/

okay. as usual for all the boring lessons.
andmdm ng got pissed off
cos there's ppl who didnt hand up her work.
on time.
AS USUAL.
and this time she's too pissed i think.
that's all because.
2/two has got no self-disipline.
aiks.
maybe adam khoo shld come and talk to our class.
to make the class bond! (x
but that's so impossible lar.
hahaha

Thursday already!
its toooo fast. aiks.
i'm feeling afraid again.
tingting think that she will fail again.
omg.
i must pass! high hopes on me okay. =/
haiis. tired leh.
haven study for chinese class test lar. haiyos.

Band. so so so so tired.
as usual.
but im still loving it.
Passion gives me the strength.
to carry on.
you are not finished if you persist.
you are finished if only you quit.
'quoted from I Not Stupid Too. The Principal. (x'
i totally agree man.

and on the way home to the bus-stop.
i thought i lost my committee badge!
SCARE ME TO DEATH LAR!
we all panicked. =/
and saw rafiq coming. had to pretend nothing happened.
so jessica changed the comm. badge become geologists badge.
and i changed general office and became geoligists centre.
HAHA.
so funny. but i was really scared. its like oh my god oh my god in the mind.
almost ran back to skool!
but guess what?
reached home and saw the badge on my table!
that means i didnt even wear it to skool today!
HAHAHA. xD
so happie. lol
but so sorry to let saiful, atika and jessica to panick with me. (x
thanks guys.
you all rock man!

okay.
i need to play piano liao.
and have to study for class test later.

time flies! =/

went for individuals with leeling after skool.
saw a SENIOR of ours.
that's according to fabian.
he tried my instrument and jiamin's selmer.
he haven't tell me what's the comment that so called senior senior senior gave for my instrument.
i only heard that the sound is very thin. =/ oh nos.

total defence day today.
uniform groups wore their uniforms.
HAHA.
so funny. (x
the naked police catch cockroach. (x

man.
time pass too fast.
my life tempo went faster and faster day by day!
i need need need need need a break lar.
this is too torturing lar.
)x

homework.
piles up my table.
piano~
when can i sit down quietly and practise it seriously?
the exam is in twenty-eight days. boohoos.
im afraid i might fail
ahhhh
no i cant.
i cant cant cant let my parents down.
my grandparents too.
they invest alot on me too.
just for my piano alone.
not saying about the others.
and yingying's got her piano certificate long ago.
she can be a piano teacher right now!
she's just too young.
they pin too much hopes on me.
and i mustn't fail them.
I CANNOT.
i promise.

homework for the day:
- Sign PTN form.
- Math Textbook Exercise 6c.
- Art.
- Geography selftest one. (but i forgot to bring it home. oh gosh.)

okay.
now i should do homework.
so that i'll have more time to play piano. (:
jia you !

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!(:
many many chocolates and strawberry jellies and one can of potato chips. =/
yay!
thanks ccj for his merci chocolates. (:
thanks saiful for his chocolates. (:
thanks amirah for her chocolates. (:
thanks syadinah for her one packet of merci chocolate. (:
thanks xin er for her fruitplus strawberry sweet and chocolate. (:
thanks jia min for her nice & sweet strawberry jellies. (:
thanks huayning for her 2 long long chocolates. (:
thanks ivan for his one chocolate. (:
thanks mummy for her one whole big can of photochips. (:
thanks thanks and thanks! =D
sorry if i forgot to mention your name. hahas.

yayness.
yum yum yum.
and also,
thanks daddy for buying the yummy KFC dinner. (:
cos mummy dont wanna cook for tonight's dinner. hahaha

and xin er's so lucky. (x
so envious eh. haha.
so many presents wor.
especially the teddy bear flower is sooooo nice and cute.
i also want. (x
too bad. haha
so ex. nobody buy for me leh. LOL.
nvm lar. hahaha.

joey!
thank me for giving you that safety pin. (:
fiona!
thank me for lending you the sooo sooo precious and nice dvd. (x
hahaha.

yay.
i love myself.
for loving myself.
i'm allowing myself so free time today.
yes yes yes. (:
and homework.
POOOSH.
off my sight.
maybe for tonight. gees.
okay.
just piano okays?

jia you!
*pat pat*
all the best for your piano!
lol!
a good pianist doesn't blame her piano okay. (:

busy busy and still busy

gagaga.
i cant stand it man.
im busy every single day.
i need to breathe. yes i need OXYGEN. pleaseee

start the day yawning. =/
got up at 6.30am. still tired. gees.
same old routine wents on..

morning was a tough one.
mrs teo announced to the skool saying we will end lessons at 12pm next mon.
oh yay. finally a break.
im soooo looking forward to it.
yes i do. very very much. (x
just dont pile up my burden with loads of homework.
puh-leeese teachers. +.+
and DARREN YEO SHUN MING.
YOU!!!
ahhh
my handphone strap. was pulled off by this idiotic boy.
=/ boohoos. my s.h.e`s reaching for the STARS de star. ):
gees.
manage to attach my pink dice into that tiny hole. oh fine.

lessons were still as boring.
gee. IT got to use the internet. didnt do anything much.
watched Happy Tree Friends on Joanne`s comp. hees
den Science was okay. i didnt really digest what she said.
so Common Test. =/
dont ask me. its over.
assembly was bout total defence and the school values stuffs.
-enterprising.-
ah. who cares.
lols. the skit by the uniform grps were quite funny too.
but still, so lame. (x

after that didnt even got the chance for lunch and went straight to class
did math ws. den bell rang and jessica came rushing me to the AVA rm.
we were quite early actualli. =/ waste my energy for running.
!! and the qns SO DIFFICULT!
too stupid to do!! ahh.
still dont understand why i was chosen. @.@

den went bak class. empty.
totally.
everyone gone home.
left the pathetic two of us. gees.
did the chinese wb. and finish up the math ws.
joanne came back to class to lock the door!
she was like on the bus to home den she came back.
she`s responsible. (:
went to staff rm dere to put the books.
ivan suddenly popped out. 0.0
den went for band.
till 5pm den took bus home with liling.
she went for her piano lesson den i go home.

and here i am now bloggin. (x
i`ve got
ART. (the shading)
MATH Ex 6a; 6b; 6c.
JIAN BAO.
ENG WS.

okay.
it dont seems a lot.
but actualli is okay. =/
off i go~

watched I not Stupid Too again yest. (:

yesterday watched I Not Stupid Too again for the third time!
with atika and saiful.
yayness. so fun with them. hahaha. thx for the day guys!
its still just as exciting.
alomost full house!

went to cathay cineleisure (dunnoe how to spell) to watch.
den wanted to watch the 3.35pm show.
but SOLD OUT! =/
so watched the 5.30pm one.
but mama actualli dun allow. =/
but in da end we still bought the ticket. hahaha.

before that went for some shopping.
but didnt buy anything for myself.
instead bought something else. (x

hahaha.
went orchard point to buy that something. (x
$$$ gone. =/
left with 30 bucks.
from $106 to $30!
$20 return back to saiful liao.
yay. i still owe atika $2. omg.
youjing has a hard time now. SAVE SAVE SAVE!!

ate mcdonalds at centrepoint for dunnoe what reason.
and thats because we were hungry. HAHA
its around 4.40pm.
tea perhaps? lols.

den ran back to the cinema.
bought popcorns and 2 drinks.
and its called the Family Combo. -.-
but anyway it was nice. hahaha
cos saiful saw a $1 off voucher for the family combo.
so we use it and pay 5.50 bucks intead of 6.50. (:

atika and me cried.
but atika cry a lot. (x
den dat saiful! dunnoe what he doing.
either rocking the chair or drinking water or laughin at the wrong time!
we crying den he down dere keep laughin.
make us cry and laugh at the same time. LOL.

and we saw some 'cute' tees which had got all kinds of prints on them.
and one of them got
"i will be wearing one of these tonight"
and dere`s a picture.
i keep asking them whats dat.
and they just keep laughing. =/
den call me go home read sci textbk chap 7.
its like OH MY GOD!
i in the MRT still ask so loud. >.<
hahaha.

and hor
i realised i dont really noe how 2 console ppl.
):
hais.

ahhh!!

how to make the class more bonded?
i dont noe!!
and why did the blogger become lykdat?
where is the font toolbar?
=/

i dont want those UNenthu peeps.
i want them all bonded.
i dun want them to go seperate ways.
BUT HOW?!
i noe some just cant get along with each other.
but its like one last yr for the class to be together.
cant they just cherish the days?

arghhs.
im going mad once again.
and the NOTICE BOARD NOW SHUCKS BIG TIME.
i dont noe who the heck dat staple those things up.
CME under math.
SCI right at the front of the class.
DOTS!!!

piano;
AHHHH.
im scared. seriously.
i AM.
and i cant fail. i dun wanna fail!!

band;
its okay. just nid more practise.
PRACISE PRACTISE PRACTISE!

okayokay.
im damn pissed.
but some peepo.
YUCK.
just stop doing what you are doing.
I HATE BACKSTABBERS.
ARGH.

Jing is alive once again.

oh im back. (:

smiles!

i slack a little.
went back home today around 3.30pm! xD
weee~
finally a break.
kit-kat !
take a break!

okay.
but im still stressed up. eeks
homework undone.
piano not practised properly.
which means that my standard now cant pass grade o8.
awww
i cant fail. i will let my parents down.
a 300+ bucks examination entry fees.
getting back a FAIL.
it DEFINITELY wont be nice.

time to practise.
practise and practise and practise.

a good carpenter doesn't blame his tools.
a good pianist doesn't blame her piano.

yeah.
i love this.
I WONT BLAME MY PIANO.
just my pathetic fingers.

MUST JIA YOU KAYS!
*pat pat*
self-encouragement. xD

and time to do more math sums.
deproving isn't a good sign!

cant wait to run 2.4km tml! yays.
i shall win SHAFIE!!!!

dead.

oh youjing
you are such a failure.!




PIANO.
-SONATA IN D.
play it evenly please.
-ALLERGRO MODERATO.
play it gently. who ask Mozart to be one.
-AUTUMN CROCUS.
play it with right rhythem.
notes not properly done.
-ALL SCALES.
in legato and staccato.

BAND.
play all pieces well.
your fingers are retarded.
so is your mind.
GET IT DONE SOON!
puh-lease!
quick!!

CLASS.
the class has no self-disipline.
i bet.
argh. anyone have problems that nid to be solved?
TELL MEE!!
okay. im one of them.
i nid to talk to myself.
MY PROBLEMS CANT BE SOLVED!!! BOOHOOS.

HOMEWORK.
IM DEAD.
AHHHH
SO MANY.
dead dead dead dead dead dead.
TIME TO DIE!
LETS JUMP!!!!
AHHHH
POK!
oh im dead.
goodbye. =/

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happy birthday everyone!

seventh day of chinese new yr.
today`s EVERYONE`s birthday!
oh, happie burfdae!
LAO YU SHENG!
yum yum.
gees.

i wanna watch I Not Stupid 2 again.
yup. for a third time.
cos it rocks big time.
(x
YEAH.
and joey`s got the big big big poster of INS2.
AH.
belinda is so nice!
i also want leh! =x

its eighthmth N oneday


yayness.
and i spent the whole day wasting time.
yupps.
whole of morning doing nth.
except watching s.h.e mv.
=/ hw undone.
revision not complete.
boohoos.
piano for one hour only.
im such a failure. ):
youjing!
time to wake up !

i wanna
i wanna
i dont noe what i want.
oh shit.
TIME TO MAKE PLANS AND SET TARGETS !
oh my dear.
im crazy!

save me from HELL! ):

save me from HELL! ):
im going crazy again.
PIANO. PIANO. AND STILL PIANO.
pray hard that i will pass.
crossed fingers!

okay. i prayed.
haiya.
its just mumbling to myself. hope it does help. =/

ALLERGRO MODERATO.
group B.
youjing! you still need lotsa practises.
esp. pg 29.
SONATA IN D.
group A.
you jing! keep your tempo/ rhythem right.
do not rush.
AUTUMN CROCUS.
group C.
you jing! PAGE THREE!
no, in fact the whole piece.
YOU SUCK AT IT.
yes, i`ve got to admit. argh.
i shucks.

_____________________________

watched "I Not Stupid Too" for two times.
yesterday with daddy and today with ccj. (x
nice nice. touching. awww
yes, they are handsome.
Ha. but i dun care.
but their acting. oh cool man!
the show is darn darn darn nice.
INCOMPARABLE one. i shld say. ha.
SO LAME; COOL MAN; WHATEVER!
lols.

Father
And
Mother
I
Love
You

that`s what "family" stands for.
oh, i love my daddy and mummy.
I LOVE YOU!

slacking. (x

LOL! in skool comp lab! gee =x
SHHH

im not suppose to post anyway. HAHAHA
so just here to say
HAPPY BURFDAE ALYSSYAH!
HAPPY BELATED BURFDAE TO SYAFINAH!

oh. wat a great fren i am
(x
im so lucky to have them.
nonono
is they are so lucky to have me. =x
LOL!
im too thick skin here. HAHAHA

miaoling is beside me. gees.
i ask her to update her blog!
now still haven!
aiyas.
shall not crap anymore.
we are doing the 孔子 thing here. lols

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MISS YU

Born on 6 November '92 in Shanghai, virgin trip on the airplane at the age of 3 when she moved to Singapore. First language was Shanghainese. Only child thanks to the one child policy back then. Sang in the Choir in Primary School, played the alto saxophone in the military band in Secondary School, then the tenor saxophone in the concert band in Junior College. Currently majoring in Linguistics & Multilingual Studies in NTU. Part time Beauty Advisor for Lancôme Paris. Tutor for Primary & Secondary School students.
Learnt some basic design sketching(fashion), yoga and modern jazz - and loved them. Loves travelling, beauty stuff, food, photography and languages. Learning 日本語, Française & la lingua italiana. Wants to learn German and play the cello.

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